2/2/15

Journal entry. Being sad is not bad. in fact i think it is good. this morning started out so sad. but i just fucking dealt with it. and today turned out great. I worked hard all day. I did a lot of phone interviews. I worked out. Didn't gorge myself. I am just listening to music. I even read part of this book "the shack." it is for this book club thing we are doing as friends. This girl Ruby chose it. She is Cam's Girlfriend's friend who visited here from Chicago. She really messed with me. It was like I met her for one night and I got this massive crush on her. You know the type of crush that is only perpetuated because you don't actually know someone. That's the type of crush it was. And then she recommended this book. And I am super critical about it. Because I want to cut my crush off from her. And thankfully this book is total shit, so my view of Ruby went like way down. Critically it is poorly engaging. It is like the author just wrote it to sort of document his friend's sad story. It is more about events than actual drama. And it is totally unrealistic because of this. Because the whole time the author is painting this picture that the main character did everything he could. That he was a perfect father. The only real mistake he makes is by burning his fingers when making breakfast for his whole family after taking them on a camping trip. The dialog sucks too. Like it is has been white washed. And the metaphors are just as cliche as the "white washed" one I just used. So because this book sucks I am able to discard my unreasonable crush on Ruby with my unreasonable analysis of her book.